Leaping Without a Net (Trusting Yourself)
How do I make a major decision – how do any of us – a potentially life-changing/life-affirming yet incredibly scary decision? A choice that has no guarantee of the outcome – a real biggie. For me, it’s still all about coming to a place where I trust myself. But, how do I get there and what criteria do I use to make an informed, educated decision and advocate for myself?
In my case, my decision is whether to have a stem cell transplant recommended by my oncologist. Pretty major. More than major. Without going into great detail – the purpose of the transplant is to replace my bone marrow with healthier cells. It’s a promising procedure, but not an assured one. So, do I take the leap? And, most importantly, how do I get to a place where I’m comfortable with my decision – that I trust myself.
Here’s my process: First, I ask the doctor a ton of questions. Is this necessary? Is this the optimum treatment at the moment? What about the risks/benefits, side effects? What other options do I have? And then, I ask me (as I’ve mentioned in other blogs) what are my personal goals of treatment? What am I willing to do/withstand/tolerate in order to potentially have a longer, better quality of life? That’s a question I will consider over and over again.
Next, I do my own research – read clinical papers, get a second opinion, talk with other healthcare professionals and folks who’ve been through the procedure and finally do some serious soul-searching. Finally, the answer comes to My own answer. Yes, it’s the right time and the right procedure and I TRUST ME.
Am I scared? Absolutely. Am I sure this is going to work? No. But, there is a moment when I know I need to give it a shot. To take the leap. So, I’m going to step into it and keep trusting I’ve made the best decision I can at the time.
This is my story. Everyone’s story is different – a story unique to their lives. If you have a moment, please share your story, your process when a “fork” shows up in your life. Keep advocating. Keep trusting yourself.
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